I am starting to think of myself as a failure. So for all of you that don't know, I am a Sophomore NC State University, studying Civil Engineering. I haven't even gotten past the classes that I should have passed Freshman year. I still have to take Physics II for Engineers and Scientists, and Calculus II. I'm currently in Calculus II right now, but I switched it to credit only, which leads to my next point. I'm taking 12 credit hours and all but 4 of them are for credit only. Meaning I don't get a grade, its just pass or fail. I had to do that so I wouldn't completely fail. This semester I'm taking Calculus II, Spanish I, Marching Band, Handball, Modern American History. Out of those courses I'm taking History and Marching Band as credit. Those are the only ones. All of this to protect my already falling grades. I am on Academic Warning already for the second time, and now I cant sign up for classes until I turn in a form, and after I talk to someone that is just going to ask, "What are you doing to better your grades?" and I will say,"Well, I'm trying to study harder." and they will send me out. I love NC State, I really do. There isnt anywhere else I would rather be. Yes I miss my parents and brother, and yes I miss the town that I grew up in. Also the friends that I had to leave behind. But NC State is a dream for me. I just want to be seen as a peer by my roomates, instead of a guy that is dumb. Not because he doesnt have the capacity for the work, but because he lacks the intellegence, and drive to do his work. I guess all of this makes me feel like Im a failure.
Facing possible SUSPENSION,
TAN
About Me
- tanail
- I am a student at North Carolina State University. I was born in Wilmington, NC and lived there until college. My major for now is Civil Engineering. I originally wanted to be an architect, but wasn't artistic enough. Love to bowl, and actually quite good at it. I play in NC State's Marching Band. And I cant wait until I graduate!...If I graduate :(
4 comments:
Hey Tim! There's nothing like a birthday to make you think and put things into perspective. I know how you feel about being a failure.... I guess we all feel that way at one time or another. I don't want to come across as all pious and spiritual, but the only way I would be able to make college and the only way I continue on every day is because of God's grace. I HAVE to depend on Him. He's waiting to help....just trust Him. I think of you and pray for you often. Blessings.... ~Leah
Tim of the Thee! First off... you weren't lucky enough to be born with a mind like mine (able to pass classes and tests without studying and doing no to minimal homework), so you just gonna have to work a little harder. My brother dropped his English class three semesters in a row, but he got there eventually. Moral of the story: Keep moving forward! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hm5AEG47Vi4
PS. I don't see you as a guy who is really dumb, just a guy with a lot of potential energy that needs to be converted to kinetic energy (physics reference ftn (for the nerd))
Well, I've given you pep talk upon pep talk. You can do it. It's in you. You've just not found that drive yet. You will. Just because you're "failing" doesn't mean you're a failure.
You can do it. You've just got to believe in yourself.
I love you, sweetie.
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